The 'Happier Than Ever' singer discusses her journey towards understanding her sexuality, her quest for happiness, and how her latest album marks a return to her roots.
- Apr 25, 2024
AceShowbiz - In an industry that constantly scrutinizes and labels, Billie Eilish stands out not just for her haunting melodies and ethereal voice, but also for her unwavering honesty. As she gears up for the release of her third album, "Hit Me Hard and Soft", on May 17, Eilish is baring her soul in ways she never has before.
The 22-year-old Grammy winner has shared insights into her personal journey of self-discovery, particularly concerning her sexuality and self-acceptance, in a comprehensive Rolling Stone cover story.
The conversation surrounding Eilish's sexuality was reignited with the debut of her new raunchy song, "Lunch," which delves into her experience of crushing on a girl. "That song was actually part of what helped me become who I am, to be real," Eilish explains.
"I've been in love with girls for my whole life, but I just didn’t understand -- until, last year, I realized I wanted my face in a vagina."
The openness about experiencing love for girls from a young age, albeit without labeling her sexuality, marks a significant moment for the singer who had never planned to discuss these matters publicly. The catalyst for this change, Eilish notes, came after an interview and a red carpet moment led to her feeling outed by the media.
"I was never planning on talking about my sexuality ever, in a million years. It's really frustrating to me that it came up," she explained. "I know everybody's been thinking this about me for years and years, but I'm only figuring out myself now."
Further exploring themes of self-love and acceptance, Eilish discusses the importance of self-pleasure in her life, emphasizing its role in her battle with body dysmorphia. This candid admission is part of a broader narrative where Eilish reflects on her evolution.
"You can manufacture the situation you're in to make sure you look good. You can make the light super dim, you can be in a specific outfit or in a specific position that's more flattering. I have learned that looking at myself and watching myself feel pleasure has been an extreme help in loving myself and accepting myself, and feeling empowered and comfortable."
Her latest musical endeavor doesn't just signify a new chapter in her discography but a personal renaissance. Returning to the essence of who she was around the release of her hit 2019 album, "When We Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?", Eilish acknowledges the transformative power of her artistry and personal choices, including a dramatic change in appearance that left her feeling unrecognizable to herself.
