During an appearance on the 'Bachelor Happy Hour' podcast, the season 16 lead of 'The Bachelorette' also talks about the positive side of filming delay caused by the coronavirus pandemic.
- Jun 24, 2020
AceShowbiz - Clare Crawley is opening up more about her life ahead of her upcoming stint as season 16 lead of "The Bachelorette". When speaking to fellow Bachelor Nation members Rachel Lindsay and Becca Kufrin, the 39-year-old hairstylist made the revelation that she had gone through a really abusive relationship.
On Tuesday, June 23, the reality star spilled the beans when talking about her not getting the "Bachelorette" gig right after ending up as a runner-up on Juan Pablo Galavis' season of "The Bachelor". Expressing her relief that it went to Andi Dorfman, she spilled, "I had just gone through a really, really abusive relationship going into Juan Pablo's season."
During the chat, Crawley also stated, "At one point, I was living in my car for three months, and I barely had a job making minimum wage being a hairstylist's assistant when I first started doing hair." She added, "I was in an abusive relationship, and I just had lost my dad, too, so I was at, I would feel like the lowest of lows."
Speaking about what she had gone through, the TV personality went on to note that they were the ones that made her stronger. "It's been something that I've hidden for so many years, but until I've owned that part of my life and looked at the stuff I've been through as shame," she explained, "but to look at it as my superpower, and these are the things that have made the woman that I am today."
On the reason why she finally shared her past, Crawley admitted, "I want the man of my dreams to see the worst of me, to know the worst of me, not to have maybe compassion or anything like that, but to maybe see it's not always easy and confident and strong and empowered. There's a lot that I went through."
"I want them to know the hard, ugly, embarrassing struggles of my life to appreciate the woman that I am today, and I want a man to love me for that, and not just for the easy makeup and hair. Anybody can love you for the easy fun times and the smiles and the laughs," she continued. "I want somebody to love me for all the hard stuff that I've been through."
When pressed if she googled her guys, Crawley quickly responded, "Obviously. What woman wouldn't, are you kidding me?" She added, "I will say this. At first, I really didn't. I really did not and it was because, I don't know. I just kind of felt like I want to get to know them and regardless, I know how my Instagram is. It's a piece of my life."
