AceShowbiz - Doja Cat felt the need to talk to her fans and followers directly after she was scrutinized over her involvement in racist chat rooms and alleged self-hate. Thus, after releasing an apology, she popped up on Instagram Live on Monday, May 25 to address all the controversies and allegations against her.
"There's no better apology than me doing what I've always done, being on live, telling you guys my f**king truth, and being completely honest," she began her Live. "It's a hard time right now, but recording myself apologizing and recording myself sounding perfectly f**king diplomatic is the biggest lie I can make to you. "
Admitting that she's "not perfect" and "my behavior isn't something that always needs to be followed," she added, "But also I need to stand up for myself instead of making a video that's diplomatically and politically correct."
She went on addressing the issues on her check list, starting with the self-hate allegations after a video surfaced of her complaining about her 4C hair texture. "When my hair is straightened or I have a wig on, I'm pretty much OK. But when I'm trying to comb out, wash, do this twist, everything, it's frustrating for me. It's very hard for me," she shared her struggle with her natural hair.
"A lot of my friends would agree, who have hair like mine, who have a hard time taking care of it. What I think that the mistake may have been that I made was saying it on a social platform, saying it out in public. Maybe being honest about how I feel," she addressed the video in question.
Admitting that dealing with her wigs "bothered" her and "pissed" her off, she added though, "In no f**king way does it mean that I hate my hair. My hair is amazing. I have beautiful hair. I get lots of compliment on it." She went on claiming, "I know that I'm beautiful and I love myself. That's why I parade myself on f**king social media constantly. … I love my skin color. I think I'm beautiful. She denied editing her photos to make her skin lighter."
Next up was the criticism against her supposed preference of white male. "Who I love ... it's zero of your business," she clapped back. Denying that she dates men based on their skin color, she continued, "If I'm attracted to someone, no matter what their skin color is, no matter where the f**k they come from, no matter what their religion ... doesn't matter. I don't give a f**k. I'm gonna f**king love them, because I love them. ... If I love someone I'm not looking at their f**king skin color. I find people attractive just because I find them f**king attractive."
Doja said that most of the allegations that were leveled against her was because people "spin" and "twist" the truth about her. Sending a message to her haters, she said, "Good luck motherf**ker!"
During the live, the Los Angeles-born artist, whose real name is Amalaratna Zandile Dlamini, also once again talked about her involvement in racist chat rooms. "Next [allegation] is 'stripping for white supremacists.' The chat room that I go to is a public chat room. It's me and my friends, you go in there ... I learned that there are racist people who come in and out of the chat. They're there. They happen, and then they're banned. The idea that this chatroom is a white supremacist chat room is... I don't understand it in any way. Not even," she defended herself.
She said that racism happens "more" on TinyChat, in comparison to Twitter and Instagram, because it is "not as monitored." She explained, "When you see racist s**t on TinyChat, it's because people aren't paying attention."
On her song "Dindu Nuffin" which is labeled as racist, she echoed the statement in her previously apology, saying that she had been called the term in the same chatroom, and had attempted to reclaim it by using it in a song. She admitted that the song is "the worst," but denied that it was in any way written to mock police brutality.
"That song is in zero ways connected to police brutality or Sandra Bland, and to see something like that, to see a song, my song that I made, connected to an innocent black woman's death is one of the most awful rumors that I've ever encountered," so she explained.
On a video that featured her appearing to mock Beyonce Knowles as Beyonkey, she stated, "Beyonce is the cream of the f**king crop. Beyonce is the reason why I believe I can be who I am. Beyonce is one of the driving forces of who I am in my career. Beyonce is undeniably talented and every f**king time anyone has ever came for Beyonce, I was there. And that's all I have to say."
Toward the end of the lengthy video, Doja said, "Doing this live might have been the biggest f**king mistake in my career, but I just don't want to be the person that f**king bulls**ts you because I know what makes me happy is that you guys are happy and you know what the f**k is real."
She added to her fans, "Thank you for supporting me and thank you for being at my shows... it's the best thing in the world and I really appreciate you. I'm sorry if I hurt you, or embarrassed you, or made you feel in any way upset. Thank you so much."