AceShowbiz - Mark Vanderpump's passing still left a huge scar in Lisa Vanderpump's heart. The 58-year-old star couldn't hold back her tears in the Monday, May 6 reunion episode of "Vanderpump Rules" while talking about how she had to turn to medication as she's coping with her brother's suicide.
"I held it together while we were filming. Personally, it was really difficult," she said to her castmates. "I'm really sorry for it because I don’t want it to bring you all down. I struggled through it, but then I thought, the best way for me to get through it is to get help."
"The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills" star went on saying that she went to a grief counselor and asked for anti-depressants. "I've never taken pills in my life. Two Advil is a big deal for me. I'm always kind of British, stiff upper lip, but I guess I have feelings, too. And I didn't do well this year, at all. At all," she explained.
Talking about it was too much for her as she told reunion host Andy Cohen that she needed a break for feeling emotionally overwhelmed. "Give me five minutes, I'll come back," she said.
Mark was found unresponsive at his home in England on April 30, 2018. He was later taken to the hospital, where he was pronounced dead in the early hours of May 1. His death was ruled as a suicide by drug toxicity.
"Lisa really can’t believe that it’s been a year since she lost her brother," a source said in late April. "It seems like it was just yesterday she found out the horrible news of her only brother taking his life. Lisa took the news like anyone would and was at a complete loss and very devastated and sad trying to reason and figure it all out."
The source continued, "She really was close to her brother and she misses him immensely and is going to take today to think about him and honor his life and remember all the good times. Its the least she can do."