AceShowbiz - Former "7th Heaven" star Beverley Mitchell is opening up about the grief she experienced after miscarrying twins last year.
The actress detailed her ordeal in an emotional post for her blog, "Growing Up Hollywood", earlier this week, ends March 22, sharing she and husband Michael Cameron were joyously anticipating adding to their family, which includes son Hutton, four, and daughter Kenzie, six.
"I have come to terms with it and have been OK; I talk about it often just because I don't want to hide the fact that it happened, I had a miscarriage," she writes. "I am not looking for sympathy just the acknowledgement that it happened, because what hurts the most, at least for me, is the dismissal of it."
While the 38-year-old has learned to come to terms with the tragedy, there are times when she struggles with the loss, noting she has leaned on Cameron for support.
"I've been struggling, I'm physically fine but my heart hurts, and my mind is tired," she shares. "My husband is a saint and has been so kind and supportive; he lets me feel what I need to but is there to pick up the pieces and just hold me."
She adds, "Life will unfold in the magic that it is, as long as I give it the space to unfold. I have to keep the faith and trust that with time I will heal."
"Everyone grieves differently and what has thrown me off (is) I honestly felt that I had gotten through that process, but it snuck up on me. I find myself yearning for those babies I see everywhere, and my heart hurts."
Though she is happy with her family of four, Mitchell reveals she still longs to welcome more children.
"In my heart I know we are not complete, I so strongly feel there is another little soul waiting to join our family, and that is where I struggle," she adds. "Behind my smile, my heart just hurt! And of course the kids talk about wanting another brother or sister so that is tough."