AceShowbiz - "Teen Mom OG" aired its reunion episode on Monday, December 24. Star Amber Portwood was one of the MTV series stars that made an appearance in the episode, which saw her getting candid about her suicidal thoughts while battling postpartum depression.
The mother of two, who gave birth to her second child James in May with boyfriend Andrew Glennon, shared in the special that she had been struggling with the depression. "It went from taking care of James so amazingly to one night I had to give him to Andrew," she told Dr. Drew Pinsky. "I couldn't, I don’t know what happened. I've never felt anything like it, I never felt like that with Leah. It started feeling like a weird pressure, like I could explode."
It was so overwhelming to the point where it led her to attempting to commit suicide. While breaking down in tears, Amber recalled, "There was one night in California where I said to Andrew, 'Just go to sleep, go to sleep. Take James with you.' I was going to hang myself." She added, "That's real s**t."
But Amber is not giving in to the demon inside her as she tried to talk and be open about her feelings to people she trusts. However, it all went back to square on due to the hate comments she received online.
"I come home, I try to talk to loving fans who I adore. I help so many f***ing people and I gotta deal with people calling me a bad mom and this that and the other when I'm going. This show is done," Amber said.
In addition, it was said that MTV only gave her a week off to cope with her depression. "How long did they give Catelynn off? F***ing answer that," she said. "I get a f***ing week for postpartum depression. There's so much s**t, we couldn't even get it on show."