Despite lamenting over the worst timing of her split from boyfriend of five years, the cast member of 'The Big Bang Theory' reminds others to still be grateful for blessings.

• Dec 19, 2018

AceShowbiz - "The Big Bang Theory" star Mayim Bialik is having difficulty facing the holiday season alone as she copes with the end of a five-year relationship.

In a blog post for her website Grok Nation on Tuesday, December 18, the actress revealed that she had split from her boyfriend, whose identity she has never shared, over the U.S. Thanksgiving holiday in late November.

In the piece, she opens up about her grief and the emotions she has been grappling with since.

"My love story is nothing particularly exceptional," she shares. "I mean, he was - er, is. I was an exceptional iteration of myself with him. For five years in fact. And now it's over."

She also hinted that the break-up was not her decision: "If ever there were a story that should have ended not like this, I feel this might be it," she adds. "But he has his own will and much as I wish I could control his will, I cannot. And so here we are."

Bialik also noted the timing makes the pain she's endured all the more difficult.

"There is rarely good timing for a break up," she continues. "But most certainly, the worst time is now. In case he is reading this, I'm just meh (not comfortable) with this timing. Because say what you will, the holidays are a time to not be recently broken up."

She shares, "Commercials tell me this is the time of year to buy the woman you love expensive jewelry. It's also when people get proposed to. And I would be lying if I said it didn't enter my mind that this holiday season might hold a promise of a secure future for me."

Despite her saddened state, Mayim is determined to maintain a healthy perspective and urges her readers to do the same.

"All over the world, people are suffering and in need. We can get through this season alone. I can even be alone for a long time if that's my path. I have many other things to work on, work for and work toward," she writes. "If you are not getting support from compassionate ears and hearts, seek the assistance of a therapist, school or work counselor or social worker, or go online and find help in your area. But also remember to be grateful for blessings, even if they are small. There is light at the end of this."

.@missmayim pens a raw reflection on being newly single during the holidays.https://t.co/keYNugBMSSpic.twitter.com/Usv3HLbr3W

— Grok Nation (@GrokNation) December 18, 2018

The romance appeared to be Mayim's first since her divorce from her ex-husband Michael Stone in 2013 after 10 years of marriage. They share sons Frederick, 10, and Miles, 13.