AceShowbiz - Sarah Hyland contemplated suicide after discovering she needed a second kidney transplant.
The "Modern Family" star was born with kidney dysplasia and had her first transplant in 2012, when she received a kidney from her dad. However, in 2016, her body began to reject the kidney and doctors determined she would have to undergo a second surgery.
Medics discovered Sarah's brother Ian Hyland was a match and he jumped at the chance to giver his sister his kidney.
"I was very depressed," the actress tells Self magazine. "When a family member gives you a second chance at life, and it fails, it almost feels like it's your fault. It's not. But it does.
"For a long time, I was contemplating suicide, because I didn't want to fail my little brother like I failed my dad. I had gone through (my whole life) of always being a burden, of always having to be looked after, having to be cared for."
Hyland credits her career as an actress for helping her get through the dark times in her life.
"My work is my therapy. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for my work," she says. "I'm so grateful for my entire family, especially my brother, especially my dad, especially my mom."
The 28 year old, who also suffers from endometriosis, is also grateful she has her boyfriend, Wells Adams, to lean on during her struggles. The couple began dating right before Sarah's surgery in 2016 and she is amazed they have been able to make it through all of the ups and downs of the past year and a half.
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Here is what you may already know: Sarah Hyland (@sarahhyland) was born with kidney dysplasia. She went into kidney failure, and needed a kidney transplant. In 2012, when she was 21, her dad gave her one of his. This much is public knowledge. What Hyland hasn’t been ready to share until now is that in 2016, her body began to reject the donated kidney. So began a very intense and emotional two years, which involved dialysis, multiple surgeries, and a second transplant—this time with a kidney from her brother. “I was very depressed,” Hyland says. “When a family member gives you a second chance at life, and it fails, it almost feels like it's your fault. It's not—but it does.” Head to the link in our bio to read more. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Photographed by @catherineservel Wardrobe styling by @marpeidro Makeup by @allanface at Starworks Hair by @marktownsend1 at Starworks Manicure by @whitneygnails at Tomlinson Prop styling by @bigtimebowen On Sarah: Top by @marineserre_official, dress by @redvalentino, leggings by @nike, necklace by @fadetoblack
"It was a really intimate start to a relationship, to have to go through those hurdles at the very, very, very beginning when you're just even getting to know a person (sic)," she adds. "Also, falling in love with someone before you can really be intimate. I did not believe that that was a thing, but it is."